Francis Farmer will have her Revenge on Seattle~Nirvana.

[It's the lyrics I attempted to make people guess on my last picture; No one did.





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I will eventually be able to write a book with these 'eight random facts' things.

I. I've decided what to do with life. I've always wanted to be a mortician, but the prospect of attending art school and following that career path has been thrown at me recently. I had quite the mindfuck over this, actually.
WELL,
I won't need to know for the next year or so, anyway. Like, I'll need to know for sure Senior year. I'm only a sophomore. I'm already set to take all our art classes, So I can't do much more there, and all the science classes I feel are relevant to the feild if it goes the other way are already set in my future schedule. [Bio, Bio2, Chem 1, Anatomy and Phsyiology. etc.]
I've decided to throw myself into art for the next two years. Like, actually attempt to get better, rather than just entertaining myself and accidentally improving on occasion. If there is significant improvement in this feild, I'll probably go for that art scholarship. If not, well, I'll follow my dream-since-I-was-9 of being a Mortician.

II. I hate sleeping. I have no trouble with it, I'm neither an insomniac nor a narcoleptic. I am fairly normal in this aspect. My girlfriend, however, has insomnia. Terrible, raunchy, rough-estimate-of-10-hours-sleeping-a-week insomnia.

I feel like I'm abandoning her every time I say goodnight.

III. My father might have cancer. He might have fucking stomach cancer, they've got him scheduled for testing on December 16th. I feel bad that the only immediate thought I had when told this information was, 'Oh. The 16th. I wonder what I should draw Meg for her birthday...'

IV. I don't hate MCR. Their fans just...irritate me. They irritate me alot. Not all of them, but the scary, I'MGOINGTOEATYOURFUCKINGSOULIFYOUDONTDECLA REGERARDWAYYOURLORDANDMASTERRIGHTNAO ones. Yeah, them. Their music isn't really bad, but I can't stand listening to it because all the damn memory attached to it gives me a bad taste in my mouth and I start wanting to smash shit. I even have a couple songs of their on some burnt CD's I had before the whole Squee-loving-MCR mess. I just can't deal with it now.

V. Speaking of MCR, I'm tired of being told that they 'save lives and I'm totally wrong and they don't promote suicide and OMFG you SUCK' whenever I say something JUST about not liking them. Jemmick, I am, actually, not directing this at you. -nudges the scary half of fans- It's them. You may be totally in love with them, but I'm rather pleased that you don't try to lynch me when I hate on them.

VI. I miss her. That douche-bag abandoner-face. I realized this as I was flipping through my mp3 the other day, looking for songs I never listen to which need deletion. [It fills up pretty quick, it's only 2 GB x_X] I came to the Keroro themesong, which I never listen to, but found that I couldn't even delete it because it reminded me of her. I still have Tetris remixes and Lazytown songs Auf Deutsch for this same reason. I'm kind of pathetic over the whole thing, actually, and I'd bet she's already forgotten I existed. I'm only okay with putting this here because I'm nearly positive she won't read it.

VII. I use people's names less as I feel further from them. Names are special, Names are an identity, an entire existance. Once you die, it's often all that's left. I usually use nicknames for people, when I just don't feel like I fit into that existance, which is often. There are, of course, circumstances where I use nicknames because they're special and I'm the only one who calls them that; but it's different. That's a bond to their existance, beyond a name.

VIII. I don't like Graphite. It's impermenance irritates me. It's useful for drawing but not for words. I will not write a single paper in pencil even if I'm downgraded for it. I just can't do it. Graphite is erasable, a sham, nothing. Ink. Ink is permanent, you can't take it back. You can cover it up with more ink, more words, but you can never truly erase it. Ink is the only real way to write; Everything else is a lie to me.

XoXo Effie. <3

FUCKMUSICRIGHTNOW.kthx.





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I JUST TYPED UP A STUPID LONG FUCKING JOURNAL, THAT I'VE SPENT THE LAST DAMN HOUR ON, AND ALL THE SUDDEN DA DECIDED TO BE AN ASSHOLE AND FUCKING BLINK WHEN I SUBMITTED IT, AND DELETE EVERYTHING.

FUCK YOU, DEVIANTART.

I am so pissed.

XoXo Effie. <3

FUCKMUSICRIGHTNOW.kthx.





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Bitz: I like your hair like that. In the bun.
Me: Hn?
Bitz: You look like a little gothic Ballerina. It's cute.
Me: Austin.
Bitz: I know. My love is worthless to you.
Me: Right you are. Now quit trying and put your fucking drum on.



I was really having a good day until band when he started up that love shit again. What the fuck do you do when your best friend knows you don't want them and won't give the fuck up?

XoXo Effie. <3

I like puns.





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So, I'm binging on cides lately? like, Suicide, Homicide, Phantasmacide, Pedocide. etc.

They make me want to make characters.

I've got plans for the characters; They're the caretakers, I suppose, of their given name. Like, Suicide would guide the souls of those whom kill themselves, Matricide would guide the souls of killed mothers, blah. You get the idea.

I'm not sure which cides to use, though.

So, pick a cide, guys. Pick several. I have alot of free-time.

Hell, if you know latin rootwords, feel free to make some up. Like, Ouranocide; I like that one. 'Fall of Heaven'. [Cide doesn't literally mean death. it comes from a word which means to fall.] Except I don't think Ouranocide is an actual cide. xD fun, though, Ja?

Anyway, I ramble.

give me your cides, assholes.

XoXo Effie. <3

Everytime I call you on the phone,
I listen to it rnig but no one's home,
I can't explain the energy
That you give me,
When I'm left here Alone.





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Past

When were you born?
Some pointless Date nearly 15 years ago.

Where were you born?
In a hospital.

What was your first grade teachers name?
Cannot rightly remember. I'm not even sure she had one, she insisted that we all call her 'teacher'. Perhaps so that she did not forget her profession?

What was your first pets name?
Spooky. He was a cat. I named him, Because when I was three 'Spooky' was a badass epic name.

What was your worst medical accident?
I don't know. It was either my birth, or when I was seven and decided I didn't like life anymore and ended up with staples in the back of my head.

What was your favorite cartoon?
PowerPuff Girls and DBZ owned my soul, Bitch. But I'd pretty much watch anything that was on.

Who was your first best friend?
Hannah Kilman. I saw her at Johnny's a few weeks ago. I waved; She has no idea who I am.

When was the first time you ever went on a plane?
That would imply that I've been on one. I have not, actually, ever been on a plane. My family doesn't have any money for vacationing like that. I mean, we'll save up for a while and then maybe DRIVE somewhere, but we're always like, in the hole for a month after that.

What were your first words?
"I do it myself." Fuck first words, I had a first SENTENCE.

What was your favorite song in 5th grade?
First Date- Blink 182.

What was your favorite movie in 2nd grade?
Silence of the Lambs.
No, I am not joking.
It was the first Movie I ever owned, and I recall gaining it that year.


Present

What is the date?
November Einte, 2009.

What grade are you in?
I am a Sophomore.

Who is your best friend?
In what sense?

What is your favorite movie?
I don't know. What effect could my answer to this question possibly have on your life?

What is your favorite song?
Changes every moment or so. At present, it is 'Ohne Dich' by Rammstein.

Any Pets?
Of my own? No. I'm not allowed to have them. Mum has a dog and Vati has a Ferret.

If so, what are their names?
Dog= Punkie. Ferret= ChaChaMaru.[He let me name it, and I was very much into Negima at the time.]

Whats your favorite school subject?
My Bio teacher is an idiot.
Phs. Ed. isn't so bad, except that I keep getting pulled put in our Hockey unit for being too agressive.
My Graphic Design teacher keeps making fun of my tic.
The band director doesn't know my name, after two years.
The english teacher thinks I'm an idiot, and keeps talking down to me.
Government and Law, while not one of my favourite subjects or anything I care to know about, is fairly okay fun thanks to Mr. Zehr. He's a swell guy.
Geometry- I cannot count.

Overall, I guess it would be Gov&Law.


What color hair do you have?
Some nasty brown colour. I grow it myself.

What color eyes do you have?
Grey. Flat, soul-less grey. Like my insides are rotting out.

What kind of music do you listen to?
The musical kind. I don't really pay attention because...well, it's just music.

Do you still watch cartoons?
I do.

Whats your favorite TV show?
I don't know. Law& Orfer, I guess. Specifically SVU.

Do you go online often?
Indeed.

Whats your worst fear?
Thaat everyone will eventually see what I see; How I'm a rotten terrible person and I've only fooled them up until now. It's not really a fear so much as an unpleasant inevitability.

Whats your favorite color?
Pink.

What state do you live in?
What if I live in a territory? or a province? DO I HAVE TO FORFEIT THE FUCKING QUIZ? Er, anyway; Illinois. The arguably most politically corrupt state in America.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I do.

Whats you favorite type of food?
Apparently, the fattening kind. As is evident by my massive 127 pounds. -sigh, slaps disgusting gut-

Do you drive?
With a permit.


Future


What do you want to be when you grow up?
DON'T KNOW ANYMORE, AND I'M TIRED OF HEARING THE FUCKING SCHOOL COUNSELOR RAG ON ME THAT I NEED TO FIGURE IT OUT. FUCK YOU ALL. I HAD IT FIGURED OUT AND NOW I DON'T AND I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ANYMORE SO SHUT YOUR DAMN MOUTHS AND LEAVE ME ALONE. CHRIST. JUST GO AWAY.

Do you want to go to college?
Of some sort.

Do you want to get married?
To her.

If so, at what age?
when it happens, it happens. Albeit, It's illegal in this state for me to marry the way I want. So, I probably won't.

Do you want to have kids?
I hate children. I think they're disgusting and irritating and sex is too messy. But I would have her kids. I would have them if it were possible, if it hurt, if I had to be genetically altered in some way that made it possible. I would do it.

If you dont drive a car, what kind do you want?
I do own one, actually. Or will once I get a job and pay it off, since it's technically Vati's. It's a '92 ford tempo, cute little thing, light blue. It's named Zephaniah Adaire.

At what age do you think youll live to be?
Don't know. Don't really care. I'm kinda hoping I die after mum, though, since I'm pretty sure she'd go back to being an alcoholic if she had to go to my funeral.

Where do you want to live when youre 25?
I don't care.

What movie do you want to see next Saturday?
I don't know. Cirque du Freak, even though I have a feeling they've fucked it up so bad I'll be vomiting on everything.

Do you think youll have to wear Depends?
Somebody. Please. If I ever have to wear a diaper, just...I don't know...give me a gun and let me play with it.

What time do you think you will go to bed when youre 70?
This has nothing to do with the question but, fuck. you. You still need to get the fuck off my planet. Christ.

Do you think you will have the same friends as you do now?
No. They'll have forgotten by me at that point.

Do you think everyone will be jealous of you at your high school reunion?
No.

Do you want to be the U.S. president?
Too much work.

Do you want to walk on the moon?
I'm fine down here with my gravity, thanks.

Do you want to be famous?
I want to be remembered; Not necessarily famous. Unfortuantely, I'm terrible and unoriginal and forgettable, So. That kinda puts a damper on that.

What kind of housing do you want to live in?
Studio apartment.

What color do you think your hair will be when your 50?
Dunno.

Do you think you will still have the same personality when youre 60?
No. And you. you need to grow up. [I apologize for being offtopic in some of these answers, but FUCK. people irritate me.]

Do you think the sun is going to explode?
Not in my lifetime, but eventually.

When do you think the world is going to end?
When God gets pissed enough.

When do you plan to lose your virginity?
It's not like anyone'll touch this. -gestures at self- I'm kind of disgusting.

XoXo Effie. <3